God Help Me!!!

"The path of the righteous man is beset on all sides by the iniquities of the selfish and the tyranny of the evil men. Blessed is he who, in the name of charity and goodwill, shepherds the weak through the valley of darkness, for he is truly his brother's keeper, and the finder of lost children. And I will strike down upon thee with great vengeance and furious anger those who attempt to poison and destroy my brothers. And you will know my name is the Lord when I lay my vengeance upon thee!"

I took the above lines from the script of Pulp Fiction..... where the character of Jules (played to perfection by Samuel Jackson) mouths them before he kills people just because he thinks that it is a cold blooded thing to do(!!!)...... and then one day he sits and contemplates the words that he utters and decides to 'walk the earth'... to be the shepherd instead of the tyranny which he represented..

I am in a similar state right now. I want to walk the Earth.....

But nah, God hasn’t influenced me on this...... I have always had some confused thoughts on God (as I am for most of the other things in life too)... What is God? Well i think in India, the concept of God is forced down the throat of children by parents.... This is the way you have to pray, you have to do this, and you have to do that...... Rituals, which nobody seems to know, why are held in the first place..... Yet everybody is expected to follow them.... Yeh aise hi chalte aaya hai..... So what is God? Very Intriguing question I find it to be..... But I am not sceptical yet....

Because I am not an aeithest.. I know i am not one for sure..... I was infact inspired by a few lines which i read in the autobiography of Lance Armstrong, I cannot seem to recollect the exact lines, But it went something like this, 'I never believed in Organized religion, But what i did believe was that if one is honest in their day to day affairs, and if one is helpful to the near and dear ones, Then you can consider your self as a reasonably good man, and at the end of it , at the gates of the heaven, God tells me 'all this is fine, But you were never a Christian', I will reply to him’ You know what? You are Right, Fine' and will walk the other way'

Oh God.......Show me the Right way... I plead you.....